Skillet - Better than Drugs

Recommended for Addicts like me.

Go. Taste it for yourself.

Part I. [WHM Manila 1st ever Service!!-Lala's Dedication]

Nov.30, 2008, 5pm
McDonald's Cubao (in front of Gateway Mall)

WHM Manila's first ever service,,,it was a great time!saw ernie again, and the 5 kids, nang lourdes, lyan, nong junjun c, tita rocel, ate isay...and STEPHEN!!!wahahah he picked us up at the Destiny Life Center after the G12 Women's Encounter...

cuzins Jhemo and Kat2, Tita Tan and Nang Tin..

surprise guest:alvin

Lala's Dedication afterwards....


so glad...so glad...

went to KAtina's concert at the Big DOme Araneta Coli..(in front of McDO) w/sister and Jomas...

accidental shotz'_08

crime scene"_bangis!

My Background Music

These are the songs that's been playing in my head..the songs of my existence...and they're all about GOd!! (w/c means my existence is also about God)

yep, they're Christian and sooo cool,,,,not to mention inspiring and instrumental in seeing God's awesomeness in my imperfect life...

some lyrics here

Be My Escape
by RELIENT K

I’ve given up on giving up slowly, I’m blending in so
You won’t even know me apart from this whole world that shares my fate
This one last bullet you mention is my one last shot at redemption
because I know to live you must give your life away

And I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.

I’m giving up on doing this alone now
Cause I’ve failed and I’m ready to be shown how
He’s told me the way and I’m trying to get there
And this life sentence that I’m serving
I admit that I’m every bit deserving
But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair

Cause I’m afraid that this complacency is something I can’t shake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.

I am a hostage to my own humanity
Self detained and forced to live in this mess I’ve made
And all I’m asking is for You to do what You can with me
But I can’t ask You to give what You already gave

I fought You for so long
I should have let You in
Oh how we regret those things we do
And all I was trying to do was save my own skin
But so were You

So were You

Who I am Hates Who I've Been
by RELIENT K

I watched the proverbial sunrise
coming up over the Pacific and
you might think I'm losing my mind,
but I will shy away from the specifics...

'Cause I don't want you to know where I am
'Cause then you'll see my heart
in the saddest state it's ever been.

This is no place to try and live my life.

Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it.
See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. Well I never should have said
that it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back.

I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to try and never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.

I talk to absolutely no one.
Couldn't keep to myself enough.
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
to create so much pressure that I’ll soon blow up.

I heard the reverberating footsteps
sinking up to the beating of my heart,
and I was positive that unless I got myself together,
I would watch me fall apart.

And I can’t let that happen again
‘cause then you’ll see my heart
in the saddest state it’s ever been.

This is no place to try and live my life.

Who I am hates who I've been
and who I am won’t take the second chance you gave me.
Who I am hates who I’ve been
‘cause who I’ve been only ever made me...

So sorry for the person I became.
So sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I’m ready to try and never become that way again
‘cause who I am hates who I’ve been.
Who I am hates who I’ve been

Awakening
by SWITCHFOOT

Face down with the LA curbside ending
In ones and zeros.
Downtown was the perfect place to hide.
The first star that I saw last night was a headlight
of a man-made sky, but
Man-made never made our dreams collide.

Here we are now with the falling sky and the rain,
We're awakening
Here we are now with the desperate youth and the pain,
We're awakening
Maybe it's called ambition, you've been talking in your sleep
About a dream, We're awakening

Last week found me living for nothing but deadlines,
With my dead beat sky but, this town doesn't look the same tonight
These dreams started singing to me out of nowhere
And I don't know if I've ever felt so alive, alive

I want to wake up kicking and screaming
I want to wake up kicking and screaming
I want a heart that I know is beating,
It's beating, I'm bleeding.

Meant to Live
by SWITCHFOOT

Fumbling his confidence
And wondering why the world has passed him by
Hoping that he's bid for more than arguments
And failed attempts to fly, fly

We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Somewhere we live inside
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside

Dreaming about Providence
And whether mice or men have second tries
Maybe we've been livin with our eyes half open
Maybe we're bent and broken, broken

We want more than this world's got to offer
We want more than this world's got to offer
We want more than the wars of our fathers
And everything inside screams for second life, yeah

Dare You to Move
by SWITCHFOOT

Welcome to the planet
Welcome to existence
Everyone's here
Everyone's watching you now
Everybody waits for you now
What happens next?

I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened before

Welcome to the fallout
Welcome to resistance
The tension is here
Between who you are and who you could be
Between how it is and how it should be

Maybe redemption has stories to tell
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here

Me and Jesus
by STELLAR KART

When there's no where else to turn
All your bridges have been burned
Feels like you've hit rock bottom..
Don't give up it's not the end
Open up your heart again
When you feel like no one understands
Where you are...

Someone loves you
Even when you don't think so
Don't you know
You got me and Jesus
By your side
Through the fight
You will never be alone
On your own
You got me and Jesus

After all that we've been through
By now you know I've doubted to
But everytime my head was in my hands
You said to me...

Hold on to what we got
This is worth any cost
So make the most of life that's borrowed
Love like there's no tomorrow

You will never be alone...
You got me and Jesus

A Love Song
by STELLAR KART

You are Lord, Lord of my life
Every day I lift you up high
I praise to you Lord
My God and my King
You reign in me for eternity

This is a love song to you
A song of praise to you lord
I kneel before your glorious throne
To show that I am yours alone

Hallelujah, I love you
Hallelujah, I love you
Hallelujah, I love you
Hallelujah, I love you

Free
by HILLSONG UNITED

Would you believe me if I said
That we are the ones who can make the change
in the world today

Would you believe me if I said
That all of your dreams in your heart
can come true today

Would you believe me if I said
that life could be all that you want it to be
Today

And if I had wings I would fly
'cause all that I need, You are
And if the world caved in around me
to You I'd still hold on
'Cause You're all that I believe
and the one that created me
JESUS, because of You
I'm FREE

Would you believe me if I said
That God can make miracles happen today

Would you believe me if I said
That you don't need to wait for the answers before
you step out in faith

Would you believe me if I said
That nothing is ever IMPOSSIBLE
for God

Just live your life with God inside
You wont regret one moment of it
And give all that you can for God
For God

All I Need is You
by HILLSONG UNITED

Left my fear by the side of the road
Hear You speak
Won't let go
Fall to my knees as I lift my hands to pray

Got every reason to be here again
Father's love that draws me in
And all my eyes wanna see is a glimpse of You

All I need is You
All I need is You Lord
Is You Lord

One more day and it's not the same
Your Spirit calls my heart to sing
Drawn to the voice of my Saviour once again
Where would my soul be without Your Son
Gave His life to save the earth
Rest in the thought that You're watching over me

You hold the universe
You hold everyone on earth
You hold the universe
You hold
You hold

Good Life
by AUDIO ADRENALINE

I've watched my dreams all fade away
And blister in the sun
Everything I've ever had is unraveled and undone
I've set upon a worthless stack
Of my ambitious plans
And the people that I've loved the most
Have turned their backs and ran

This is the good life
I've lost everything
I could ever want
And ever dream of
This is the good life
I found everything
I could ever need
Here in Your arms

Loneliness has left me searching
For someone to love
Poverty has changed my view
Of what true riches are
Sorrow's opened up my eyes
To see what real joy is
Pain has been the catalyst
To my heart's happiness

What good would it be
If you had everything
But you wouldn't have
The only thing you need

Who Am I
by CASTING CROWNS

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You're

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours

While You were Sleeping
by CASTING CROWNS

Oh little town of Bethlehem
Looks like another silent night
Above your deep and dreamless sleep
A giant star lights up the sky
And while you’re lying in the dark
There shines an everlasting light
For the King has left His throne
And is sleeping in a manger tonight

Oh Bethlehem, what you have missed while you were sleeping
For God became a man
And stepped into your world today
Oh Bethlehem, you will go down in history
As a city with no room for its King
While you were sleeping
While you were sleeping

Oh little town of Jerusalem
Looks like another silent night
The Father gave His only Son
The Way, the Truth, the Life had came
But there was no room for Him in the world He came to save

Jerusalem, what you have missed while you were sleeping
The Savior of the world is dying on your cross today
Jerusalem, you will go down in history
As a city with no room for its King
While you were sleeping
While you were sleeping

United States of America
Looks like another silent night
As we’re sung to sleep by philosophies
That save the trees and kill the children
And while we’re lying in the dark
There’s a shout heard ‘cross the eastern sky
For the Bridegroom has returned
And has carried His bride away in the night

America, what will we miss while we are sleeping
Will Jesus come again
And leave us slumbering where we lay
America, will we go down in history
As a nation with no room for its King
Will we be sleeping
Will we be sleeping

So I Thought
by FLYLEAF

All your twisted thoughts free flow
To everlasting memories
Show soul
Kiss the stars with me
And dread the wait for
Stupid calls returning to us to life
We say to those who are in love
It can't be true 'cause we're too young
I know that's true because so long I was
So in love with you
So I thought

A year goes by
And I can't talk about it

On my knees
Dim lighted room
Thoughts free flow try to consume myself in this
I'm not faithless
Just paranoid of getting lost or that I might lose
Ignorance is bliss cherish it
Pretty neighborhoods you learn to much to hold
Believe it not
And fight the tears
With pretty smiles and lies about the times

A year goes by
And I can't talk about it
The times weren't right
And I couldn't talk about it

Chorus Romance says goodnight
Close your eyes and I'll close mine
Remember you, remember me
Hurt the first, the last between
Chorus Romance says goodnight
Close your eyes and I'll close mine
Remember you, remember me
Hurt the first, the last healing

And I'm praying that we will see
Something there in between
Then and there that exceeds all we can dream

And all these twisted thoughts I see
Jesus there in between
And all these twisted thoughts I see
Jesus there in between

Believe in Dreams
by FLYLEAF

I know
Days will come and go
Maybe I'll grow old
But I will die

For now
Is it worth it to be sad
If it's harder to be glad
To be alive

But the trouble I
have caused
I wonder
Where do I belong
Is it here

Believe in dreams
You love so much
Let the passion
of your heart
Make them real
And tell
All the ones you love
Anything and
everything you feel

Laugh about the past
And secretly
Wish we could go back
And save the child

As I look around this room
Seeing worried
eyes that know
It's time we cannot buy
Was this worth the
time to write
Was this worth the
time to write

Believe in dreams
I believe in dreams
I believe in dreams
I believe in you

Believe in dreams
Believe in dreams

a Masquerade

Sam's Masquerade Cocktail Ball
September 28, 2008, Sea Breeze Hotel

i was late (old news) but it's because this is my party number 2!!i so looove everything..so purple, espescially the masks and the stage and the throne...

haha i wore glittery black dress with some lace linings...black sequined shoes and i love my hair coz it was so neat,,,after like 4 parties, i finally had make up on from some salon...i was 18 candles again...

my best friend's birthday date

Ale's 18th...july 4,2008...
Sorrento-Cafe Bob's Lacson-Shakey's

original debut date was july1...this was after the USLS foundation day so i was still in my corporate attire...we just hang out...had fun...great day! hapy hapy day..

NEVERLAND - My Article featured in Philippine Daily Inquirer

YOUNGBLOOD
Neverland
By Czeka Svetlana Tuvilla
Inquirer
First Posted 00:42am (Mla time) 05/03/2007

MANILA, Philippines -- The only thing that convinced me to go to school was the monthly allowance I would be getting. I expected almost everything else in my existence to be gruesome in the next four years.

Every weekday, I would have to wake up at 5 a.m., travel through three cities and pass endless sugarcane fields to get to the mental institution lost in the middle of nowhere. At night, I would have to stay up late, reviewing lessons and preparing for tests -- and arise the next morning, only to realize that I needed to do what I had done the night before all over again.

I kept imagining this kind of high school life, which was far from what I had dreamed of. Instead of a normal curriculum, I would be loaded with advanced classes. Instead of late night-outs, I would be cramming for the exams. Instead of dance clubs, I would have to choose among the Cult of Math Wizards and Science Freaks’ Society. Instead of dreamy popular jocks, I would have to put up with boring, socially isolated, “may-sariling-mundo” [in-a-world-of-their-own] nerds.

This was not the high school I had seen in teen flicks. This was not the high school described by punk bands in their songs. This definitely was not Sweet Valley. But no matter how much these anxieties discouraged me, it seemed I was meant to study there.

All expectations became reality on my first day in school. They did not have a dance organization, no Orlando Bloom look-alike (although I had to admit, some came a little close), no neat lockers, no mirrors in the comfort rooms. The only thing I got was an assignment, on the first day of classes!

The following days brought more disappointments. Instead of a football field, we had a deserted savannah. Instead of a gym, we had a stage and a court that were totally exposed to carcinogenic radiation. Instead of a canteen, we had a “tiangge” [flea market] and a few wooden tables and chairs that slowly sank into the muddy ground. Instead of malls and restaurants and the excitement of a bustling city life, we were surrounded by trees and “amorseco” grass, crazy dogs and crazy snakes, and the monotony of trucks passing by. And since the school was just six years old when I first enrolled, there was (and still is) a serious deficiency in physical resources.

Every morning, I felt nauseous after the long trip to get there. I was too lazy to copy notes. I was sleeping in class and struggling to keep up with the lessons, because I was always absent-minded.

Determined to have a decent high school life, I raved and ranted and told my parents that I needed to change schools. But by the time they came to agree with the idea, I had grown averse to leaving. The first months may have been spent on making adjustments and throwing unnecessary tantrums, but what followed was incomparable fun.

You see, this school is a sanctuary for kids who have been deprived of their childhood. Many of the students have been pressured by their parents since they were young. Undeniably, their learning has made them bright, but it cost them their early years.

In our school, we lived in our own world. High school students enjoying jump rope, jackstone, Chinese garter and local favorites like “langit-lupa,” “sekyu,” “enter-enter,” “tumba-patis” and “shakay” were not common. Boys and girls joined games of hide and seek and we hurt ourselves playing “Dr. Wak-wak.” Some even pretended they were mutants and engage in Marvel vs. Capcom fights.

When we met other students from the urban schools, we could not help but compare how they were “more dalaga” or “more binata” [more grown up] than us. Most of our former classmates were more reserved and self-conscious.

Don’t get me wrong. Our life was not all about games and fooling around. Peter Pan and his gang may not have grown up, but they learned how to find solutions when problems came their way, to fight for what they believed in. It was not easy to pass if you did not try hard. We were taught how to survive, how to be competitive, how to be resourceful and wise (we had to improvise if emergency struck because we were far from civilization, remember?), how to stand out, how to face unlikely situations, how to be productive and responsible people for society. The claim to being “the cream of the crop” was the result of quality training, diligence and perseverance.

We were serious about our studies. But that doesn’t mean we didn’t know how to unwind and relax and simply have a good time with our classmates. The extreme academic demands and the extreme excitement of being young created a unique balance that produced a new breed of students -- students who knew how to survive the ruthless race of life and enjoy the experience.

But the best thing I found in this school was that everyone was family. Our brilliant teachers were our friends and the small population made it possible to know almost all the students (who were living proof that beauty, talent and brains could mix). You may not please everyone, but the many wonderful people reminded you that you were special. With the mental stress came misunderstandings and inspirations, cunning strategies and values that made us emotionally mature. (And honestly, I’ve never met a friendlier and a more approachable principal than the one we had.)

We had a half-covered court, collapsing walls and sandstorms. We had no telephone connection and intramural competitions. A tricycle ride to the school cost me P30. But while many people would consider these things discouraging, they actually helped make us better persons and better prepared since more of such things waited for us when we entered college and professional life.

I once had a dream: I was riding on the side car of a tricycle, back to back with another person. I saw the main building standing proud among tall sugar stalks and trees. It held its usual simple charm. No, it did not show age nor did it show signs of falling down. The sight was heartwarming, the facade brought back smiles and tears as well as memories of successes and failures, of friends and enemies, of bonding and competitions, sleeping and cramming sessions, the foot walk, the duel academy, scandals, intellectual monsters, terror teachers, terror students, rallies, corny jokes, the pink room, the blue room. All these I would not exchange for better facilities and a JS prom, I thought.

Suddenly I noticed that the scenery seemed to be getting farther and farther away from me. Then I realized it was I who was moving away. I didn’t want to get out of this place. I had found a refuge for my eccentric soul, a second home where I could be young and happy amid all the social and mental pressures.

But no one can stay in their comfort zones all the time. One day, we all need to step out and face the real world. I had found Neverland, and now I was leaving it.

And just like Wendy, and (almost) all who had graduated from this school, I will always yearn for this place and relive the moments and the memories.

Czeka Svetlana Tuvilla, 17, graduated from the Negros Occidental Science High School last April 1.

HSM 3 and NOSHS Article

yesterday, we watched HSM3 and it was cool...i was actually DYING to watch it
since the premiere of HSM2..and so i did yesterday, and it was a fun thing to watch
but also sad cause you share the feeling that that the cast feels, about the fact
that there will never be another HSM with the original cast...

i didnt actually remember any songs as i did from the last 2 installments,
but i like the musicale presentations, the costume, props and all...
also some say that Zanessa was a bit more PDA-ish at the movie and didnt
look as innocent as before..but anyways it was okay, and actually quite tamed,
as compared to other shows that featured senior high students (GossipGirl, theOc,
Laguna Beach, OneTreeHill,etc.)..

it made me cry and remember my high school life...im glad that i had very little
regrets and "what if's" about those times..they were really great times, and I
guess i've had it to the fullest..or sumthing...

yeah and i would like to share my article about my school...i wrote it like
late March before graduation and sent it to the YOungblood section of
Philippine Daily Inquirer...they posted it May..

just check it out on this link...
MY NOSHS ARTICLE
or maybe i'll post it...just watch out...tc God bless...


--mitchie/micci

Iced Out Hip HOp Show

Sab's 18th party
Sept. 13, 2008
Chicken J Foodcourt Function Rooms

i was soooooooooo late..i was from a church meeting..and i went crazy looking for something to wear earlier..

i ended up with a dark blue tube, with a white cover-up, that was really cute, with some silver brooch in front...white short-shorts, and short stockings with some glittery stuff..black sequined peep toes..and my magic ultimate super multipurpse BLACK lace as headband...

fun night...lot's of dances, mostly hiphop..her 18 roses was cool too..i arrived late and left early hahaha...18 treasures me..but unfortunately i wasnt able to speak nor eat coz i was late...ahhah

Harvest Seminar Part.2

Start:	Nov 7, '08 04:00a
End:	Nov 7, '08 6:00p
Location:	CHMSC AVR

with PAstor Manny Santiago..topic:THe HARVEST